Shmoo!!! =]

Wow, been a long long time. So.. how's my vacation going? Fine so far. Nothing extravagant this Christmas. We didn't even have a Christmas Eve party or what we call Noche Buena. Partially because the whole Baldueza clan wasn't there. Yep, it's all Anna's fault. Hahaha. It was just Me, my mom, Andrew, and Kit who came home to the province. And then the Bernardos, Uncle Reo, and my Grandpa. So we all just ate out. I even slept in early unlike all the other Christmas eve's. Yeah, I always stay up until 3am or 4am or I don't even sleep at all. It's either with Khina, or with Anna, or with them both. Oh well. Hm.. I've been staying at home most of the time. It's not that bad, at least compared to previous years. Although I haven't seen my friends since school was out, I haven't died out of boredom like from the previous years. But of course, I miss my friends. As you all know, my best buddies are all away now. Humphrey's in Europe, CJ's in America, and Jimmy's back in America too. I miss Kimmy and Tissa too. Actually, I've grown fat this vacation. I don't know why though. I barely eat. Seriously, like once or twice a day only. Maybe it's because I sleep so much. Hahaha. I don't stay up anymore since the router's out. Only the main computer, this one, has internet. Hm.. As for the band, we're still stuck in a dead end. Blah, fuck it.

Belated Merry Christmas to everyone. ^^
'Til next time

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Okay, so it's been how long? Dunno but it seemed so long. Lot of shit happened.

Misha, our vocalist, may or may not be able to join the band. Not sure yet but right now it's tilting a little more to NOT being able to join us. Yup sucks. She's like the most decent vocalist too. Others? Shit. Anyway, Caryll's mom has been talking to other moms about me. Like she doesn't like my attitude and shit. Aww I feel so touched. Although my image/rep is totally ruined and my dignity totally damaged, I don't care that much like I would have thought I would. Haha dignity? image? Been listening to Religion teacher too much. I know, and I don't even believe in a god, right? But who said non-believers don't have values? Another thing.. yeah she's been talking to other people about me not believing in God. I mean.. what does that have to do with her daughter being kicked out of the band? And why talk to other parents? Why not mine? Or better yet me? Because she knows she's talking bull. Yes, that earned a bold font. If she's like that, no wonder her daughter can't say anything in front of my face. Yeah, in Caryll's section, we come out as the bad guys. Mainly me 'cause she hates my guts for a reason I don't really know. Now now, I'm not being a hypocrite. Well, I know I am one but not in this case. I can't really be frank right in front of their faces 'cause once again they'll use it against me and would act as if it's some big deal. They really need a good hobby. I know I got a lot of bad traits on me but geeze, just ignore me if you don't like them. Simple. You like me, we hang. You don't, better stay clear of me 'cause I'm not changing. Black sheep of the family? Heard that before. Bad influence? Old news. Taboo? Pfft. Parents don't really like me. But some do so too bad for those who don't.

Next, been really busy attempting to complete my requirements. Yeah, because of my extreme laziness, school shit just started crashing down on me. And then next week is our quarterly exams.

CJ left for America last Tuesday and I dunno when the hell is he coming back. Probably after a few years or so. xD Then Jimmy's going back home for Christmas and not just for the holidays.

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Okay so we had our Songfest last Thurday..
Songfest: new thing STC came up with. Every class of each level would compete with each other. Each level would have one song that they would practice.. put dynamics, tempo, and shit like that.
Example, all third years would sing "Pasko Na" and each section would compete. Guess what, our class won first place. Haha! xD

But Thursday still sucked.. Misha may not be able to join us since her mom is friends with Caryll's mom. She said that her mom said that it might offend Caryll's mom. First of all.. what's done is done. She was kicked off and she will not be taken back. Second.. what do moms have to do with it? It's a band.. not a fucked up family shit. And during the songfest, Caryll's mom was staring at me like I did something so fucking terrible. Kim said she was being stared at too. It was irritating but not at all scary. She thinks her staring would do shit? Oooh.. I'm being looked at.. Save me.. I'm so scared.. >>; wtf.. Oh and I heard she's talking nasty shit about us.. Like we're all the bad guys.. I dunno.. Oh and I feel so sorry for Elvie coz Caryll's putting the blame on her.. And it was Elvie's birthday last Thursday..

Anyway, I was going through old CD's a little while ago.. found the Limp Bizkit CD's xD
They're fun.. My new "pissed off" song.. xD

"Break Stuff"

Its just one of those days
When you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked
Everybody sux
You don't really know why
But you want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
It's just one of those days!!

[chorus]
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Lettin' shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit
(Punk, so come and get it)

I feel like shit
My suggestion is to keep your distance cuz right now im dangerous
We've all felt like shit
And been treated like shit
All those motherfuckers that want to step up
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break your fuckin' face tonight!!
Give me somethin' to break
Give me somethin' to break
Just give me somethin' to break
How bout your fuckin' face
I hope you know I pack a chain saw, what!!...
A chain saw, what!!...
A motherfucking chain saw, what!!...
So come and get it

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We finally told her that we wanted her off the band.
So now our new drummer is Pae.
Thought that problem was over but then it wasn't.
Elvie talked to her about being in a band and friendship.
Then she told Elvie "TY kasi narealize ko na wala kang kwenta"
Fuck. Naghahanap ba siya ng away?
Coz if she is, then I'm going to give it to her.
I know it was addressed to Elvie but we all decided on this so that means she's saying we're all worthless.
But even if it's just for Elvie, I have no problem with carrying the burden on my shoulders.
It's what I do. Away ng kaibigan ko, away ko rin. What are friends for, right?
That's right. Whatever she throws at Kim, Elvie, or Misha's face, I'll take it.
If it gets physical, I won't hesitate to fight back. But since she's bigger than me, if I can't take it? I know CJ's got my back. =D

Next, addressed to Ica. Look, I'm not an attention whore like you are. I don't write about my problems here to get attention and for people to pity me. Problems are a part of my daily life and this blog is like a diary. But I don't want to call it a diary coz it's too fucking girly. Anyway, I am aware that this blog is public but only friends of mine know of this blog. Maybe some strangers visit but I don't really care about them. Also, I don't give a fuck if people read this crap or not. I don't care if they pity me or they think my little rants are stupid. I just write here because I want to. And I'm writing this here because I'm tired of talking to you and I know that you will read this since you are so interested in other people's lives and you're creepy. =

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