Shmoo!!! =]

continuation..

Keavin didn't call me since i got home from the province..
i knew something was up..
i had a feeling Joanna and him were together already..
anyway, Karla's birthday..
stayed at a hotel with her..
me, Karla, Aly, Elaine, Joanna, Chengly..
Joanna was avoiding Chengly the whole time..
why would she do that?
then Joanna had to go home..
she wasn't allowed to sleepover at the hotel..
anyway, Chengly and i stayed up all night..
seriously..
everyone else was asleep..
and the two of us were just talking..
but 5am came..
and we slept for a bit..
on one pillow..
not beside each other! i know better than that!
more like heads beside each other..
each taking the opposite side..
then we woke up..
and then stuff and shit happened..
then Aly kept on asking him what was that secret..
and he kept on looking at me..
and i already knew..
more like guessed..
they were "together"
and he said yeah..
why did they deny it?
so fucking annoying..
that's like lying to me..
after that..
i was just.. sad..
didn't talk much..
just trying my best not to cry my eyes out there..
and before i left he hugged me..
he's sweet and all..
but he hurt me.. badly..
and Joanna? my so-called "friend".. i dunno..
i'm kinda pissed with her.. but i can't start a fight just because of a guy..
so yeah..
we may have gotten along well..
but maybe too well..
i guess i'm nothing but a sister to him..
whatever..
kill me now please..
God hates me..
misery loves me..
and love isn't much of a friend..
so yeah.. kill me..

life? to be continued.. maybe..

Pondered |5:27 PM|

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