Name: Maria Patricia B. Diaz
Nick: Pat, Trish, Tricia, many more...
DOB: March 8, 1991
Location: Philippines
Status: In a Relationship :]
YM: greencowsgomooo
MSN: kairi_kawaii@hotmail.com
E-mail: KairiKawaii@gmail.com
Day Job: Psychopath on the loose
Loves: Aminals, Music, Guitars, My favorite bands, Food, Italian food, Japanese food, Spicy stuff, Sweets, GREEN & BLACK!, Morbidness, Sarcasm
Hates: Veggies, Pink, Sell-outs, Posers, Flirts, Sluts, Rap, Preps, Government, People beyond stupid, Irony, Bands I hate (Duh! xD), Traitors, list goes on and on and on.. (I'm more of a hater than a lover >=D)
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k.. since i have time to spare from my "not so busy" life.. i'll update you people on my "oh so interesting" life... since my last post, not much has happened... except.. our class just discovered that in last year's Dance Production (if you don't know what this is, read the previous post), we were actually 4th place... so yeah... that means... for a whole friggin year, we believed that our class was 6th place out of 6 classes... which totaly sucks!! it must've been those stupid judges' fault!!! stupid mother fuckers.. excuse my foul language... -.- to make it all short.. i'm so fucking useless.. heck, i can't even get/keep a bf.. i'm not saying guys are everything... but it proves something at least... you have something... well, i don't... i have nothing.. i AM nothing... ergo.. there's nothing to lose if i kill myself... back to band A... my spirit died and my passion for music was long gone... so saturday, tonight... i took a pass on one of our band's biggest gigs... sorry guys... and also... i was gonna sell my guitars and other instruments... my bro, Andrew, knocked my sanity back into place... i'm playing again... =) and now.. the parents are back.. they were out for the week... one was in Australia and one was in Thailand... convensions... shit like that.. and i got new shoes!! hell yeah! no, not girly shoes.. eeww... i got 2 new pairs of Chuck's... yeah.. some say i'm a guy in a chick's body... whatever... -.- this way too long already... bye now!
and... this year.... we are.... -drum rolls- 3rd place! yeah, not that glorious... but we knew we were 3rd place before we knew we were supposed to be 4th place last year... we thought we were 6th place then we got 3rd... so yeah... we thought it was a big improvement... apparently not... -.-
ok, i can't post the pictures i promised right now.. but i will... cross my heart.. hope to die.. stick a needle in my eye... XD
monday to thursday... not much but band practices.... i had 3 bands... 3!! THREE!!! and all were active in one friggin week!! so yeah.. i often came home late... all beat up...
band A= the real one... you know, with humphrey, cj, ica, and all my friends outside school
band B= with my friends in school.. not classmates though... you people know Kimmy and Elvie
band C= classmates.. i wouldn't exactly call friends... i mean.. we ARE.. but not so much and not all of them...
band B was cancelled... kim and elvie had a fight... so yeah.. and we had to turn in a form with all our band info, etc, etc.. but it was too late... submittion of forms ended already...
band C was for the interaction...
THE INTERACTION
since my school was an all girls school, we had to interact with an all boys school.. and for the sophomores... it was Ateneo... the interaction wasn't that bad... and i must admit... a lot (i dodn't say all of them) of Ateneans, look kinda good... yeah.. but not in a "i-can-make-every-girl-drool-over-me" kinda way... anyway... since our band only practiced for 3 friggin times.. and it was a song i was so clueless of.. coz it was by a band i absolutely hate... it was.. by Hale... god, it even hurts to say it... anyway... i was really really nervous... not because of the boys... i belong to a group of friends that are mostly guys... so nah... i was more nervous coz of my own classmates...
i'm the type of person who has no confidence whatsoever in myself... (remind me why i'm pouring my heart out here?) you see, this is why i don't invite anyone to my band's gigs... i'f rather perform to a bunch of people i don't know than to people i know and i'm sure i will see again... you see, if i screw up, the people that don't know me at all wouldn't care and would eventually forget about it and they wouldn't see me again and i wouln't feel even more embarrassed about myself...
and if i don't know anyone in the crowd, i'm not saying i won't be nervous at all, but i would be less nervous compared to if i was infront of people i do know... you guy understand the shit i'm saying? and here's a discription of how i get nervous...
hours before the actual performance: wierd, but i yawn a lot... even if i'm not really sleepy... my hands are a bit shaky... and i easily pissed when you keep on talking to me too much coz i'm way too busy panicking mentally about what if i screw up...
on the performance itself: i'm pale.. i can't breathe normally.. my hands are shaking like crazy.. my hands are cold.. my hands are damp (i'm not gonna say sweaty coz it's not gross or anything..)
yeah.. i have a serious problem about confidence... and my clammy hands don't help either...
yeah.. we played that stupid Hale song.. and i was lead... and i had 2 solo's... and before playing one band member kept on telling me.. "pat, the lead and solo, ok?" translation: "pat, don't screw this up"...wow.. that helped... and you know what? i did screw it up! not the solo's though... fortunately... anyway... that sucked... i sucked... that day.. i was so depressed... you couldn't even paint my face... my thoughts? i was thinking.. "i suck.. i don't deserve to be in a band.. i don't deserve to hold a guitar.. i'll never play the guitar ever again.. i'll sell my guitars.. then i'll drown myself in a pool of poison..." i even remembered my cousin saying i suck with the guitar.. not the exact words but she was hinting on it.. yeah.. my spirit totally died that day... i had nothing...
hey, long time no see... anyway.. 2 weeks after my last post, which was way too much drama by the way, all we did was practice practice practice... you know.. for the Dance Production.. we do this every year...
Freshmen= interpretative dance
Sophomores= street dance
Juniors= gymnastic dance
Seniors= interpretative dance (with story line)
yes, the sophomores' dance seems like the most normal of all... anyway, so yeah... we practiced street dancing... and dancing isn't exactly my favorite thing... but.. i had no choice.. the Dance Production affects my entire 2nd quarter grade... and.. dancing isn't so bad actually... but... it really is when you have to dance in front of hundreds of people.. blah... anyway... practices were friggin hell... but also fun... =)
how the Dance Production works... you see, every year level is divided into 6 classes... and each class is supposed to create their own dance and show it off to the crowd and the judges... yes, the judges... each class will compete against each other... but not against other year levels... remember? they have a different kind of dance... anyway yeah...
october 29... the Family Day... kinda like a fair... only.. much much boring... wanna know why? coz my school, STC, sucks like hell... but i still like it... anyway... Family Day means the presentation... the Dance Production... a lot of people said our class's dance was good.. but... unfortunately... we didn't win first or second place... yeah, bummer... first place went to ii-4 and second place went to ii-1... our class, ii-2? i have no idea... results soon to come...
what else? we stalked my friend Elvie and her boyfriend Daniel during the Family Day... lmao.. her bf was like 6ft tall, i think... and she was... 4'11"? i think... not sure... if i'm wrong, please don't kill me... yeah.. and i was with Kimmy the whole day... and.. we were pretty bored the whole time... i mean... everyone had dates.. except us.. plus, even if i had a bf, i wouldn't bring him to school... no friggin way... well, depends on who he is... you know... and Kimmy? does she have a bf or not? well, that's for me to know and you to find out... fwahahaha!
after the Family Day.... SEM BREAK!!!! whooo!! no classes for a week! we went to our province, Pangasinan, last Sunday and stayed there until Tuesday... and yeah, we didn't sleep until 4am.. well, who the friggin hell would sleep if you just saw your bestest cousins, Anna and Khina? i mean.. i only see them a couple of times a year... so yeah... Anna.. is, as usual, cought up with her boyfriend, Mykell... i wonder why the hell would his parents want to misspell his name.. i mean... did they not know how to spell Michael? i know they can name their kid whatever they want but jeez... give the kid a break.. heh.. i am sooo going to hell... next is Khina.. yeah... she's pretty much normal.. nothing wrong with her noggin'... but... all she does is school school school... Anna's a complete slacker.. while Khina's a complete workaholic.. in school, i mean.. wow.. i'd say i'm pretty neutral.. fwahaha! and... Anna's short.. and Khina's tall.. i'm in the middle... Anna's older.. Khina's younger... again.. i'm in the middle... wtf... am i gonna die first?
moving on, when we came back here to the city.. we brought Khina with us.. so yeah.. i was forced to entertain the visitor... serving her drinks etc, etc... eek! work! lol jk... i love annoying Khina.. last time she stayed at our house, i kept on singing The Lion Sleeps Tonight from Lion King.. lmao.. and this time.. i kept on dancing when we were in public.. i don't care.. those people? i doubt i'd see them again.. i'd be more embarrassed if i were to dance in front of people i know... but aren't really my friends... blah.. i just wish you understood that... lol...
now, Khina went back home to Pangasinan.. and i'm stuck here at home.. i haven't seen Humph and the others for a month or so... i'm starting to miss them actually... i miss Kimmy and the others too... oh and Mamoth has been mad at me for a month now... i'd apologize... if i knew the reason why she's mad at me... and i'm tired of being the one to approach her when she's pissed... i don't think i've ever heard her say sorry after a long arguement... anyway, yeah...
oh well, i only have a weekend left before school starts again... blah.. more school work... and.. i still have to learn this song on the guitar... my classmates just pulled me into the band.. for the interaction.. with an all boys school... Atteneo... Jake's from Atteneo... thank god he's a Junior.. fwahaha!
and now i have to go... i have lots of pictures in my cellphone.. yes, my cellphone.. i stopped bringing a camera wherever i go when i bought a bigger memory card for my cellphone.. anyway... pictures will be uploaded and posted here soon... and that is when i am not feeling lazy... buh-bye!