Shmoo!!! =]

17... joy...
he's always on my mind.. always...
i never think straight coz of him...
even in my dreams...
when i sleep, i see him...
i'm not so sure if it is a dream.. or a nightmare...
he comes and goes...
when he's there, he drives me crazy...
when he's not, i still go out of my mind...
blah.. i don't know what to do anymore...
awake or asleep, he's on my mind...
for countless nights i've cried myself to sleep...
thinking what the hell went wrong...
to the point that i confessed to my own mom about me having boyfriends in the past...
even if i wasn't really allowed to have bf's...
i really needed someone to talk to...
even now i don't know why he dumped me...
i know it's wrong... and insane...
but i really do still love him...
i guess i meant it when i said i'd always love him...
but... he's gone now...
probably happy with someone...
and all i can do is shoot myself in the head to stop thinking about him...

aishiteru...

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You and Me Forever

You're the one that knows me best,
The one among all the rest.
The one who knows the real me,
The person no one else could see.

Without you here,
It wouldn't be the same.
I'd miss you so much,
I'd go insane.

I'll be by your side,
For whatever comes your way.
Trust me on this one,
By your side is where I'll stay.

We share many memories,
Good ones and bad,
Those memories were the best ones,
I've ever really had.

I miss the good times,
Whether it was laughter or tears.
But losing you,
Is my only fear.

There's not a day,
That I'm not thinking of you,
And how lucky I am,
To have a friend that tells me the straight out truth.

You're my best friend,
No matter what you do.
My definition of a best friend,
Is everything I see in you.

* By Savy

to humphrey, jessica, cj, jake, micu, vince and to the rest of the group....

yeah... i have more than one best friend...

who said there should be only one?

no offense, but honestly, my bestest friend is humphrey...

o.O don't even bother arguing with me...

you all know he's the most decent person in the group..

ica isn't exactly best friend material...

she takes advantage when you're being nice and bitches when you're mean to her... >.>

cj... all he does is argue with me...

apparantly he finds it amusing to contradict me...

but hey, there are also things that are good about them...

i love my friends =)

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so........ what to blog about... x.x;;

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!
last week... all i've been doing i finish my projects and study for the exam... cramming...
i never study... only during the quarterly exams.... x.x
and as usual... the hardest text for me is Filipino...
i didn't even understand the question... how could i answer?
vocabulary... low... in Filipino..
friends ask me if i'm even Filipino...
mixed... but yeah... Filipino.. o.O
and... as we all expected... the longest test was on Biology... 13 PAGES!!!
for god's sake... must there be a question for every detail we studied?!
seriously... after the test... my freaking neck was killing me...
my seat was in a corner... i was facing a fucking post....
what's good about it is that i don't get distracted much... coz i only see my paper...
and i don't see the other students taking the test...
i never cheat.. especially on tests... i'd rather not risk getting caught...
but there's still that hint of temptation when you know it's right there already...
wow.. i should be a freaking saint... but.. the voices in my head say i'm going to hell... =)

what else... last friday... we didn't have classes... feast of our patron saint... but whatever..
anyway, Kimmy, Therese, Mamoth and i went to the mall... Robinsons (Manila)
(friends at school.. coz the other dudes have classes.. haha... sucks for you, guys...)
Tissa's mom said there was a group of terrorists near the mall we planned to go...
kudeta? i don't know they spell their group's name!!!
hell, i don't even watch the news nor do i give a fuck about what's going on in this god damned country....
(Megemall, Podium, Shangri-la... 3 malls in one venue... fun, no?)
and when i got home, i learned that my sister went to EDSA (that place where the terrorists were supposed to be) and she said there were no fucking terrorists....
oh well... going there tomorrow anyway...
back to going to Robinsons... yeah... we ate at Yellow Cab...
(the best pizza place.. aside from restaurants in Italy that is.. Italy ROCKS! locals stink though...)
then we looked for a decent movie... movies sucked... Lord of War? Dungeons & Dragons 2? and some filipino movies? (one filipino movie that was showing was entitled "Tuli" which is circumcision in english... i was like... what? they're showing how a dude gets circumcised? o.O?)
so... we just saw Deuce Bigalow: European Gigalo.... oh god i was totally laughing my ass off... though perverted or gross sometimes... it was still funny...
i was like... 'oh my fucking god...'
when that chick with a dude's thingamajiggy for a nose sneezed and you-know-what came out...
totally gross... and it just got a lot more gross when, in the end, they said the chick found a dude with a woman's thingamajiggy on his face...
omfg! hahaha! i can't even imagine how would that look like!!!
then i forgot... humphrey asked me to watch that movie with him before...
there's no fucking way i'm watching that again x.x;

earlier that day... i was so hyper that i totally annoyed Mamoth...
jeez... pissy much? it wasn't that annoying...
so yeah... that really ruined my day... i was quiet and i just followed them around...
blah... whatever...

then in the mall.. several times did i see Chris...
Chris... that college dude? i only spoke to him on chat... i forgot how i met him...
i've seen his picture but he hasn't seen mine.. fwahaha!
when i was 13 and he was already 18... (so yeah he was old...) he was totally all over me...
it was really annoying... check out the old testimonial he gave me in my friendster... jeez... x.x
anyway... he still won't answer my text messages... blah...

and today, saturday, i didn't go to the band's studio to play with the others....
i stayed at home all day and slept.... i didn't get much sleep coz of the exams...
so yeah... i actually just woke up... and i'm going to sleep again after eating... XD
hibernating...

so yeah... must find food... didn't eat all day either.. and it's 7pm... x.x
dying...
baibai

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people... i have a new cellphone number... coz my sister tried to open my cellphone... she didn't know my security code and so she tried to guess it.... until.. my sim got completely locked.... when i came home and opened my phone only to discover my sister nosed around my phone, i was so pissed that i tackled her.. oh how i wanted to beat the hell out of her... but she's my sister... blah... family thing... and so... i didn't have a phone for a week... didn't speak to her for a week too... and now i have a new sim card... but... people don't receive all my text messages... so this may or may not be my permanent number... i'm too lazy to call all of you... so here's my number... i don't give a damn if a stranger gets this.... T.T

(0)9159265897

blah... my old number was so much better... worked nicely too...

let this be a lesson to all... i hate it when people touch my things...
which is why i have security numbers and locks and keys and whatever...
there wouldn't be over 15 locks in my room's cabinets and drawers if i don't mind people going through my stuff...
"what's mine is mine, what's yours is yours" i always say...
so keep your dirty little paws off of my fucking property.... T.T

if you don't know how possessive i am... then you don't know me at all... =.=

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eh... i'm very sorry for that entry posted by my friend.... uhm... just ignore that and forget you ever read it.... if you did read it, that is..... thanks... >.<

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